Poem – 3 am Confessions

Hey there! Another week has passed, and my series of posts regarding books and reading has finally run its course… So shall we move back to some poetry? 😀 It feels like a long time since I’ve shared any poetry with you all, and I’m excited for today’s selection.

This poem was written during last semester. I was wrestling with a lot of different things, particularly regarding relationships with people, and trying to find balance in them. I’m naturally an extrovert, and since coming to university my extroverted side has grown even more pronounced due to the abundance of people everywhere. It’s a good thing, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing (wow that was a lot of things in one sentence :D). Last semester was a journey in figuring out how to embrace my extroverted side while also giving myself time to rest and be alone so as not to burn out. Finding balance isn’t easy though, and so this poem was written as an expression of my inner wrestling during that time…

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I’m sorry, but I have to go.

Yes, I know – its early yet

and last night we were up till 3,

baring our hearts in turn

by the light of a streetlamp.

But tonight, it’s different –

my soul is weary and

the laughter we bounce back and forth

is a poor exchange for the rest that

I so desperately need.

 

It’s not that I don’t want

to be with you – I do.

It’s just that I want it too much

and I’m starting to suffocate

beneath the weight

of the words that fly so quickly,

fluttering like a thousand pieces of paper

under the light of a streetlamp –

a snowstorm of ideas that are

numbing my mind with

every moment passing.

 

Time is precious

and I love to spend it lavishly

with you.

But lately I’ve been longing

to spend some time with just

myself (please don’t think me selfish).

I’m learning the value of silence and empty spaces

and the wonder of just

one shadow underneath

the yellow light of a streetlamp.

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I’d love to hear any thoughts you have regarding this poem of mine… Is finding balance between your extroverted and introverted sides a struggle for you too? I’d love to chat in the comments!