Hey there! Another week has passed, and my series of posts regarding books and reading has finally run its course… So shall we move back to some poetry? 😀 It feels like a long time since I’ve shared any poetry with you all, and I’m excited for today’s selection.
This poem was written during last semester. I was wrestling with a lot of different things, particularly regarding relationships with people, and trying to find balance in them. I’m naturally an extrovert, and since coming to university my extroverted side has grown even more pronounced due to the abundance of people everywhere. It’s a good thing, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing (wow that was a lot of things in one sentence :D). Last semester was a journey in figuring out how to embrace my extroverted side while also giving myself time to rest and be alone so as not to burn out. Finding balance isn’t easy though, and so this poem was written as an expression of my inner wrestling during that time…
I’m sorry, but I have to go.
Yes, I know – its early yet
and last night we were up till 3,
baring our hearts in turn
by the light of a streetlamp.
But tonight, it’s different –
my soul is weary and
the laughter we bounce back and forth
is a poor exchange for the rest that
I so desperately need.
It’s not that I don’t want
to be with you – I do.
It’s just that I want it too much
and I’m starting to suffocate
beneath the weight
of the words that fly so quickly,
fluttering like a thousand pieces of paper
under the light of a streetlamp –
a snowstorm of ideas that are
numbing my mind with
every moment passing.
Time is precious
and I love to spend it lavishly
But lately I’ve been longing
to spend some time with just
myself (please don’t think me selfish).
I’m learning the value of silence and empty spaces
and the wonder of just
one shadow underneath
the yellow light of a streetlamp.
I’d love to hear any thoughts you have regarding this poem of mine… Is finding balance between your extroverted and introverted sides a struggle for you too? I’d love to chat in the comments!